Tickets, Pianos, & New Beginnings.

Ugh! It's been so long since I last wrote something. SO much happened. Where to start, where to start...

Well, firstly, I got my Glee concert tickets! It's front row, and although I got ripped off and had to pay $200 per ticket for them (-.-) and lost my prom dress expenses during the process, it's going to so be worth it!!! Ahhh! Chord Overstreet close up! Corey Monteith close up!!! I'm really, really hyped up for it. xD

But besides that, these past few weeks have actually been pretty hellish for me. During our senior trip, where we went to this resort, people got caught drinking. Of course the people who got caught just HAD to be my roommates and they automatically assumed I was drinking with them. It all got so hectic.

But the worst part about these past few weeks were just all these feelings that I've found out about. For instance, I found out the guy I liked for a long time likes one of my best friends. It wouldn't be half as painful if he didn't come to me about it, asking me what to do about his feelings. I told him it wasn't my business, and I didn't want to get involved in it, but he told me he wanted me to get involved and that he wanted my opinion because I'm his best friend. It just hurts. It just hurts everywhere for me to talk to him when he has that look in his eyes talking about another girl. I try so hard to forget about him, but he's just always there and it crushes me inside. The worst part is that I like him but when I think about it logically, I should hate him so much. He screwed me over again, and again, and again, but I keep coming back for more. I don't understand it; I shouldn't deserve to get this kind of treatment- I know better...yet, every time I see him, my heart thumps an extra beat and it's just all too confusing for me.

My extremely close/best friend, we'll name her "U" (that's what her name starts with), gave me all these advice and I ultimately decided I will just start over again. A new beginning. Away from all this shit. Like she told me, I'm just going to detach myself from everything.

I know everyone at least experienced this same situation once (if you have not, you are lucky as hell) but I experienced this with the same freaking guy over and over again, at least three times. That's why it's getting to me so bad- I know I should forget about him, but I can't. I just can't. I've known him for so long, we're so close, and I just can't help my emotions. I really wish I could hurry up and graduate so that I can get over him more easily. I found that when I'm not near him for long periods of time, I think less about his existence. It gives me peace away from him and time to think about his bad qualities, which makes him that much more easy to dissolve away from my heart. Idk...I should stop rambling. :/

I feel like I should end this post on a cheerier note, so I'll post a picture of this piano. It's always been in our house for decoration purposes more than anything, but I've been practicing on it more and more lately (I used to take lessons when I was like 8 and stopped when I was 13). Soul would be proud.