PA!!!

I found this incredibly cute...idk...

 So I definitely went to PA this Friday-Sunday. It was so, so, so much fun. Despite all the terrible drama that came with it- (I'm so done with senior year. I'm so done with my "friends." I'm so done with school, I'm so fucking done. 

Today, one of my pretty close friends got super pissed off at me. I didn't even know why; I just knew something was wrong because she wouldn't talk to me or look at me when I talked to her. Later, I found out it was because my OTHER friend didn't invite her to his birthday party at Pennsylvania but invited me. Um, what?

Okay, I'm sorry, but it isn't MY birthday party. Why in the hell's name are you getting mad at ME? Because I was invited? Dude, I've been that guy's best friend for 4 years, you have no idea about all the shit and pain we've been through. You and him barely even TALK. The lame excuse she had was, "I made him a cake for his birthday, he should have invited me." Well, okay, I bought him 40 dollar white converses and personally designed them with inside jokes and quotes and pictures. You don't even KNOW the extent to our friendship, don't go fucking judging our relationship like you know us.

The part that pisses me off the most, though, is the fact that she's mad at me. Why me? What did I do? Now I think everything over, she's AlWAYS been a bitch to me. I bought her a game she really wanted and a huge card with everyone's signature inside it for her birthday last year. What did she do for my birthday? NOTHING. She made a friend she wasn't even close to a fucking cake but didn't give me shit. The most she gave me was a "happy birthday!" on facebook. Oh, fucking thanks. I don't even want a fucking cake, just the thought that you care so little about me pisses me off. I still can't believe she's getting mad at ME for not being invited to SOMEONE ELSE'S party.

Oh, I'm sorry. I forgot we're all seniors and not little 10 year olds.

"Omigawd he didn't invite me to his birthday party, I'm going to go cry and shit talk about my friend WHO HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE INVITATIONS.")

- I had the best time ever. We went mad old school with our songs (we were playing songs like My Band and Alcoholic lmfao) and we just had the best time ever. We played beer pong (high schoolers against college students! The high schoolers won by the way c; ) and Kings. The rules of Kings was that every time someone picks up a red card, they have to strip off a piece of their clothing. Needless to say...I saw too much of people that I didn't necessarily want to see. The rules that got set this time was that after every sentence, we had to say "Justin Bieber meow." Lmfao, it was terrible. "Drink up, Justin Bieber meow." "Change the fucking song!...Justin Bieber meow." It sucked especially for me because I was the third link as a drink partner. -___-' I went to sleep at like 4 and woke up at like 6 in the morning, I functioned with 2 hours of sleep everyday. It was terrible but freaking amazing all at the same time, I really let loose. 

<-- That was the house we were at, it was super cozy and I loved it inside. The only problem were SPIDERS! I am terrified, like absolutely absolutely terrified of bugs- in any shape, way, or form. So when I saw a spider crawling its merry way across the bathroom floor, I almost cried. I'm not even exaggerating, I have a terrible phobia of bugs. Despite all the shit going on in my life right now, once I was in PA, idk, it might have been the amazing nature atmosphere or the crazy fun games we played (one including putting shaving creme on top of a hat and tossing cereal on it and seeing who was able to have the most cereal stuck on and playing twister)  but I was able to forget everything. I was so easily able to detach myself from my problems, and it really helped out a lot. So thank you S, for inviting me to your house in PA<3. 

House directly across from the one I was staying at. 

We left PA and headed back to NY at around 8 (I got home at like 1 in the morning lmfao) and it was so scary! The woods can get really creepy in the nighttime and the setting really looked like a horror movie setting. There was this one part where we had to cross a bridge and we looked out to the sides, and it's just completely pitch black. Like, no light at all, just pure raw darkness. It was really scary, like there was nothing- no substance- around the bridge at all; as if the bridge was floating in midair. It was scary but exhilarating all at the same time. I didn't even care that I didn't have my computer or internet access during the whole trip, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. 

I come back to school from PA, though, and it's all shit again. Ugh, my friends are having problems and I really wish I didn't have to be part of them, but they tell me everything and make me part of it. -.- I'm so sick of drama, can't I just have fun for my senior year? Drama-free? Please? I might as well ask for a pink unicorn. >_> 

Ugh...it's 9 and I have to go bake a cake...don't ask... 

Movies & Projects

I've watched Beastly and Just Go With It haha. It's funny because Beastly's trailer was so much better than the movie itself, and Just Go WIth It was so much better than the trailer lmfao. I mean, I'm not saying Beastly was bad, it was actually really cute, it just...had some parts that did not sense, or seemed way too fake haha. Alex Pettyfer was so adorable though! It sucked because his actual face came out for like ten minutes, and then he became the beast :p. Just Go With It was really funny and cute, and it was light so I really liked it. I keep old ticket stubs...and I don't know why. I feel like they're the best pieces of memories you can physically have...for some odd reason. o_o

My friend also recommended Me Without You to me, and I watched it and I actually really liked it. The last speech that Holly had (played by Michelle Williams) really got to me emotionally, and reminded me of my current situation with my best friend. Every time I hang out with my best friend, I feel like that- shitty, ugly, self-conscious. I don't know why, and she's been my friend for so long, but it's just...that's the way she makes me feel. And it really kills me inside. "U" was actually the one that recommended me to this film (especially since she and I were the trio with the other one- let's call her "S" that makes me feel bad) and she feels the same way about "S." :/

I didn't go to school today because of my stupid English essay. >_> Now, before you think I'm a procrastinator, I'm actually really not. I spent my whole Saturday AND Sunday doing our English group project, which was to make a labyrinth using religion themes and put passages from A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man that correlate with religion. The worst part? We couldn't even finish in time. And it was all due tomorrow (well, the project is due Tuesday) so I just took this day off lol. It sucks really bad though, because I really wanted to go to watch the Battle of the Brains that takes place today. :(

Our group all went to my friend Elio's house and we worked on the project for 5 hours (while watching that 70's show lol). It was fun, and his mom was so nice. xD I love hispanic families, they're always so nice & comfortable to blend in. :)

I bought the popsicle sticks and the glitter! Elio had a glue gun and we cut the popsicle sticks and pasted them on the board firmly. My fingers actually got hurt from cutting the popsicle sticks, but I really liked the results, so who cares? Lol.

Our final isn't this, but it's close to. We just need to add the popsicle sticks with the passages of the book in them, and add a Stephen figurine in the beginning of the maze (we'll probably end up just using lego blocks because the Ken doll we were going to use...was just too...no. lmfao). I wrote the notes on the right corner!!! Haha, and I also had the idea of burning them to make it look more authentic! I had to write it over like 3 times though because when I went to burn it, it kept burning completely. -.- In the end, Elio had to do it lol, and he did perfectly in one try...that boy. >_>

On a side note, I want these Ugg boots...really bad. I think they should stop sending me catalogues because it's really getting to me. It makes no sense for me to get them, seeing how winter is almost over...but ahh! I really want them, like really, really badly. Especially the creme colored one, that one just looks absolutely fabulous. xO

Tickets, Pianos, & New Beginnings.

Ugh! It's been so long since I last wrote something. SO much happened. Where to start, where to start...

Well, firstly, I got my Glee concert tickets! It's front row, and although I got ripped off and had to pay $200 per ticket for them (-.-) and lost my prom dress expenses during the process, it's going to so be worth it!!! Ahhh! Chord Overstreet close up! Corey Monteith close up!!! I'm really, really hyped up for it. xD

But besides that, these past few weeks have actually been pretty hellish for me. During our senior trip, where we went to this resort, people got caught drinking. Of course the people who got caught just HAD to be my roommates and they automatically assumed I was drinking with them. It all got so hectic.

But the worst part about these past few weeks were just all these feelings that I've found out about. For instance, I found out the guy I liked for a long time likes one of my best friends. It wouldn't be half as painful if he didn't come to me about it, asking me what to do about his feelings. I told him it wasn't my business, and I didn't want to get involved in it, but he told me he wanted me to get involved and that he wanted my opinion because I'm his best friend. It just hurts. It just hurts everywhere for me to talk to him when he has that look in his eyes talking about another girl. I try so hard to forget about him, but he's just always there and it crushes me inside. The worst part is that I like him but when I think about it logically, I should hate him so much. He screwed me over again, and again, and again, but I keep coming back for more. I don't understand it; I shouldn't deserve to get this kind of treatment- I know better...yet, every time I see him, my heart thumps an extra beat and it's just all too confusing for me.

My extremely close/best friend, we'll name her "U" (that's what her name starts with), gave me all these advice and I ultimately decided I will just start over again. A new beginning. Away from all this shit. Like she told me, I'm just going to detach myself from everything.

I know everyone at least experienced this same situation once (if you have not, you are lucky as hell) but I experienced this with the same freaking guy over and over again, at least three times. That's why it's getting to me so bad- I know I should forget about him, but I can't. I just can't. I've known him for so long, we're so close, and I just can't help my emotions. I really wish I could hurry up and graduate so that I can get over him more easily. I found that when I'm not near him for long periods of time, I think less about his existence. It gives me peace away from him and time to think about his bad qualities, which makes him that much more easy to dissolve away from my heart. Idk...I should stop rambling. :/

I feel like I should end this post on a cheerier note, so I'll post a picture of this piano. It's always been in our house for decoration purposes more than anything, but I've been practicing on it more and more lately (I used to take lessons when I was like 8 and stopped when I was 13). Soul would be proud.

Apple Store & Flying Prom Dresses?

I want to go flying!!!

My friend Dylan got into one of the most prestigious Naval academies in America. He wants to be a pilot for the army, and he even has a flying degree already. He promised me he'll take me flying one day, I can't wait. x) I like Dylan a lot as a friend, but sometimes he gets a little clingy. And racist. But I mean, nobody's perfect, right Miley?

I guess in terms of governmental connections, I'm pretty set.


Lmfao, one of my closest friends Tayler, and I were talking about prom dresses yesterday and I was telling her because I'm flat chested, I can't wear any of the really nice ones.

Needless to say, the conversation ended up hilarious...and on facebook. Hahaha. My most two wanted dresses were the following:

http://www.promgirl.net/promdress1321.html

http://www.promgirl.net/2011-short-prom-dresses-1511.html
(the white version)

I'm a short person so I can't wear long dresses (sadly). Tayler's short too, so our dresses keep colliding lol. She wants the white one too, but I really like that one!!! So idk, idk. I'm thinking a scene like Bride Wars might ensue. We decided to go shopping this Sat to check out the dresses around Manhattan first before we buy it online. I volunteer at the hospital every Saturday, so I feel really bad about missing it but I really want to go. :x

My sister was going to buy me my prom dress for my graduation present but I asked her to buy me front row Glee concert tickets instead...:/ So now I'm screwed in terms of the price. I mean, my parents will probably buy it for me if I asked them to but I don't want to spend their money in such an unnecessary way. I guess I'll go looking for a job. >_>

Yep, I took these pics myself...
...which is why they look so crappy lol.

Oh, and on Tuesday I did go to the Apple store! Right afterwards, I was supposed to go to my friend Elio's house and have a rice krispies making contest with him. However, the plans didn't fall through because everyone cancelled at the last minute. So after fixing my charger (I honestly don't know why it broke. The charger cost $61! I had no idea it was that expensive) I just roamed around NYC. As Carrie Bradshaw would have put it, I was on a date with the city. x) I actually had a lot of fun, although, people probably thought I was a tourist seeing how I was taking pictures everywhere.

The Apple store is gorgeous. It's a whole glass building, and you go down the elevator and it's this huge, wide space filled with apple products. It's my first time going to the one on Fifth Ave., and now it's my favorite one.

Speaking of the Apple store, it's a funny story about how I got there. I decided that for once in my life, I won't take a cab and actually take the SUBWAY to the Apple store. I google mapped the place, and saw the trains I had to take. Well, they didn't clarify if I had to take the train uptown or downtown, so I ended up taking the wrong side. I got terribly lost and ended up just taking the cab AND being late for my appointment. So much for taking the subway. I think I'll just stick to taking cabs from now on. Also, I'm never trusting google maps. Ever again. -.-

Can you spot the tourist? Hehe. The places around the apple store were a lot of fun. 

*Sigh* I'm already getting lazy about updating this blog, but I really should force myself to do it. More than anything, I'm doing this for myself. I remember I used to write one page in my diaries and NEVER continue them after a week of writing in them (I had 15 empty diaries with one entry in them). I do want to remember my past events and stuff when I'm 30 or something, so I should keep it! Especially online because 1) It won't get lost 2) My hands don't kill me after writing a lot.

Beastly & Snow

Seriously, New York City is bipolar. Just three days ago, the weather hit 65 F, and people were walking down the street wearing shorts! Now? There's snow everywhere and the weather dropped to a low 29 F. In the span of three days it dropped that much! The weather here is insane. I'm not planning on going outside today, so I think I'll try to make some cupcakes(The horror! Did I not learn my lesson from the terrible flan I made yesterday?). I have frosting so I'll just lather a thick layer on top of my cupcakes if the cupcakes turn out terrible, and no one will know. ;)

This is how the snow looks around New York. Actually, this was taken a long time ago- like a month ago? I'm just putting it up now to show how the snow looks like here. The sunset was really gorgeous that day, it was something I couldn't capture on my camera (especially since I was using my phone's camera to take this pic). You really had to be there to experience the true beauty of it; it was majestic. The usually vibrant street was really empty because it was 7 in the morning when I took that picture haha. In the background you can see the trademark yellow school buses and a taxi cab near the Mobil gas station.

Strange guy coming towards me! I was just idly taking pictures, I didn't even notice him lol. I don't think he minded too much though. Contrary to popular belief, New Yorkers are not rude nor mean lol. I guess we're just busy people, and sometimes we don't have time to stop and help the hundreds of tourists that come here every day (no sarcasm here). 

Besides NewYork's bipolar-ness, I found a new movie I want to see really badly! 

It's a new adaptation of Beauty and the Beast!  It looks very fun. Vanessa Hudgens looks much better than I last saw her (High School Musical 3 lol) and Alex Pettyfer looks as good as always (before he became a "beast" I mean). 

Watch the trailer here: 

It's been getting good reviews, and I'll probably watch it as soon as it hits the theaters. 

Well, time to make some warm cupcakes! My battery's running out. -_-' I have an appointment with Apple tomorrow to replace my charger. For some reason my charger refuses to charge my laptop, and I have...34% power left. This is so inconvenient! Especially since it's snowing out and it's going to be hell getting on the train tomorrow to get there. Sigh. Maybe I'll take pictures of the Apple store on 5th Ave and post it.  

Fail Flan

It's a Sunday, I got bored and I did not feel like writing at all, so I made the terrible mistake of making a flan. Now I absolutely adore flan; it's one of my favorite desserts. I looked up the recipe online and I had all the ingredients, so I thought why not make a flan? *sigh* I should've known with my cooking skills nothing ever goes right.

Well, these were the ingredients:

First, I had to melt a cup of sugar. Well, I melted it perfectly...with a plastic spoon. I started to mix the sugar with a plastic spoon, thinking oh, I could just throw this plastic spoon out rather than using a metal spoon and having to wash it. It never occurred to me that the freaking plastic spoon would MELT. -_-' The plastic melted in with the sugar, and the sugar that was melted perfectly had bits of plastic in it...I panicked, and without thinking, I poured all the hot melted sugar in a freaking PLASTIC GARBAGE BAG. How dumber could I get?! The plastic bag obviously melted, and it got all over the floor...I spent 15 minutes scraping the hardened melted sugar off the kitchen floor. I started melting the sugar all over again, with a METAL spoon this time and it actually turned out well....

...But that was the only thing that went well. Idk why, I followed all the instructions! I mixed it perfectly too! But...but this was my final product:

When I tell people I'm a terrible cook, they go "Oh no. Don't say that, I'm sure you're not," or "Don't lower your self esteem, and stop trying to make people pity you, I'm sure you're a good cook."

Yeah, yeah. Does THIS look like a good cook to you?!  Next time they say that, I'm going to shove this down their throats and they'll die of food poisoning. T_T

D: And I said this before, but I followed ALL the instructions perfectly! I don't know what's wrong with me. I must've been born without the cooking gene...sigh. Oh well. I'll live...maybe marry a chef or something.

On a brighter note, I finally got some exercising done today. This damn treadmill at my house...it's my savior but also my killer. We have a love/hate relationship lmfao.